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adrienmundi) wrote2020-03-25 05:48 am
adrienmundi) wrote2020-03-25 05:48 am
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It looks like lockdown stress break down hit J before me. I'm sure it's exacerbated by chemo (the last time around, everything was more emotional; this time seems to be starting similarly), and by being sequestered in the large room downstairs. Even before the virus, she didn't leave the house except for appointments with doctors, and would only go outside for a few minutes to breathe fresh air and look at trees. It's the small things; sleeping apart, me having conference calls at all hours between 9 AM and 6 PM, and being asked to only go on the back deck (less people touch the deck and door than the front porch).
I still worry. J's reaction to summer allergies (cough, nasal congestion), combined with her reaction to chemo (fatigue, dizziness, joint pain) overlap enough with coronavirus symptoms that I feel always on high alert (to be honest, I've vacillated between "alert" and "high alert" since she almost died in her sleep a few years back). I try very hard to focus on the near at hand, and not rush to extrapolate worst cases because they all feel too real, and too out of my control.
The cats are not adjusting well to both of us always being home, and in different rooms. They yell to try and drive us together, and it's both frustrating and a little heartbreaking.
I still worry. J's reaction to summer allergies (cough, nasal congestion), combined with her reaction to chemo (fatigue, dizziness, joint pain) overlap enough with coronavirus symptoms that I feel always on high alert (to be honest, I've vacillated between "alert" and "high alert" since she almost died in her sleep a few years back). I try very hard to focus on the near at hand, and not rush to extrapolate worst cases because they all feel too real, and too out of my control.
The cats are not adjusting well to both of us always being home, and in different rooms. They yell to try and drive us together, and it's both frustrating and a little heartbreaking.