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adrienmundi) wrote2021-03-03 06:35 am
adrienmundi) wrote2021-03-03 06:35 am
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Long, involved, interconnected dreams last night about identity, transformation (both mental and physical), and minds/selves becoming more than solitary (dual in one case, well beyond thousands in another). Magic was heavily, heavily features as an assumed core.
I woke from one dream in which I'd become a POV character, a tall woman in a short red dress, sobbing in deep, heartrending way because she/I couldn't sing, couldn't get past all the self-doubt, hesitation, and all the history of gendered bullshit around voice and meaning.
What woke me was realizing it as a dream; I realized it was a dream because I rarely cry in the waking world, and almost never loudly or unselfconsciously.
I woke from one dream in which I'd become a POV character, a tall woman in a short red dress, sobbing in deep, heartrending way because she/I couldn't sing, couldn't get past all the self-doubt, hesitation, and all the history of gendered bullshit around voice and meaning.
What woke me was realizing it as a dream; I realized it was a dream because I rarely cry in the waking world, and almost never loudly or unselfconsciously.