images/icons/presences/personifications

[adrienmundi]

Sleep - (looks like a less chalky, gothy version of Gaiman's Death, very physical and visceral relationship)

the Sun - (probably my first true love. never in human form)

fire - (we came to an understanding very early; in the year I feel into a bonfire and accidentally walked on coals)

the wind - (an energetic, far travelling friend that's at times frivolous and playful, at times old, wise, and intense)

a long, straight bladed knife - (I used to occasionally feel full of sharp, swirling knives, until I "grabbed" one, blade down. since then, I feel like I'm carrying it in the same grip whenever I think about it, or whenever the image comes to mind. I don't quite understand this yet)

Euterpe - (my muse: long limbed, dark skinned, huge dark eyes, short wild curly hair, usually in a short white shift. she never speaks or sings, but evokes and encourages me. it amuses me that she's chosen me, even though I'm not a musician)

Water - (from a fevered hallucination: "all water is a part of Water". I swam before I could crawl, and have always loved the rain and gotten childishly excited by bodies of water. Sometimes, if I'm having one of my "episodes" and I can immerse myself, I go to a watery grotto where there is flickering light around the corner, and the low sounds of human voices, maybe chanting)

mercury/rebus/hermes - (a symbol chosen for shallowly clever meanings, who continually makes a deeper and deeper mark in/on me; tends to answer requests after I've forgotten about them, and in surprising ways. something to do with gates/doors/openings/points of overlap. I always see it as the symbol, which is starting to sometimes stretch into what I think might be legba's veve, by way of a squared crossroads?)

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[adrienmundi]

I distinguish avatars (though which is an avatar for which, I'm not sure. What I meant was that, as opposed to sleep or Euterpe, not a form which is not also physically human, if that makes sense? The sun has no unique and distinct human form of it's own, though it manifests in you and vice versa; does that make any sense?

[fairyhead.livejournal.com]

*grumble* *grumble* I guess it makes sense. It still feels like there's a certain inconsistency that makes it not-really-real, but more a pretty turn of phrase. That's just what it feels like to me, not that it's necessarily *like* that.

[adrienmundi]

I can assure you, it's not like that for me. I can still recall when, missing you painfully, re-awareness was forced upon me of the sun by *your presence* in it, starting off the whole process of being open to things I can't and shouldn't ignore any more; the two are inextricably linked, for me.