Now, I think maybe you're right, or partly right (about the balance thing, not the goth thing); I'm actively working, sometimes, to try to overcome or face things that used to be unbalanced, or knee jerk reactionary. But, historically (at least since my teens), I've pulled towards 'darkness' (for wont of a better term) and away from 'sunniness' (despite my persistent love for sappy, optimistic pop music). I dunno.