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adrienmundi) wrote2003-10-21 12:31 am
adrienmundi) wrote2003-10-21 12:31 am
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Things which seem apparent to me now:
I am shackled by my past. I seem to have gone beyond "learning from experience" to being crippled by it.
I use 'consistency' to cut myself, a lot (though there will never be after school specials about it).
It feels as though I am the primary architect of my own prison, and have done such an admirable job that I cannot see how to get out.
Can't un-/learn, can't use evenhanded criteria, can't get out: in other words, both stuck and fucked.
I am shackled by my past. I seem to have gone beyond "learning from experience" to being crippled by it.
I use 'consistency' to cut myself, a lot (though there will never be after school specials about it).
It feels as though I am the primary architect of my own prison, and have done such an admirable job that I cannot see how to get out.
Can't un-/learn, can't use evenhanded criteria, can't get out: in other words, both stuck and fucked.