two (of legion)

[adrienmundi]

I'm really beginning to worry that I'm becoming "difficult". I have this nagging fear that I'm coming to be viewed as troubling: too much work; someone one has to be careful not to offend; one around whom others must tread lightly. I worry that I am coming to be seen as no fun, as just not worth the effort, depressing, unpredictable, as one likely to turn in the hand. My problem is that I don't know when to shut the hell up, when others don't care what I see or how I see it. I worry that I am seen as harsh, unkind, judgemental, arrogant, and thinking I'm superior. I don't think any of those are true, but they're labels that have dogged my steps for years and years, and may have been at one time accurate. Not everyone cares about what I care about, or about me. Add more to the list of things I need to learn to accept.

Comments

[laughingwoman.livejournal.com]

i think you think alot.

and perhaps, in the back of my mind, i was worried by some of these concerns. that was before i met you. now i'm convinced. you're wonderful and conscious and kind.

thinking that you think a lot, or the fact that you do, elevates you; it does not make you descend.

[adrienmundi]

That's probably the most effective way you could have delivered your message. Thank you, again.

[celticmoni.livejournal.com]

(insert empathetic words of encouragement here, because I'm not sure which particular ones would fit this situation.)

;p

[adrienmundi]

Sometimes, it helps to just speak a fear. I'm not sure if this is one of those times, but I'm hoping it will help.