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adrienmundi) wrote2003-04-04 10:32 am
adrienmundi) wrote2003-04-04 10:32 am
A new flavor!
Frustration doesn't always lead to anger in me, particularly lately. Instead, it leads to tears; yay.
I feel as though I do not do enough. The world, as it exists, seems not to have a place for me in it, or at least no place for which I'm willing to pay the price asked. And yet, I worry/feel that I'm doing nothing to change that. It certainly won't change itself, at least not at a pace in which I can enjoy the results. So the question I ask myself is, "So what are you doing about it?". The answer, unfortunately, seems to be, "I don't know what to do" which effectively translates to nothing.
I feel as though I do not do enough. The world, as it exists, seems not to have a place for me in it, or at least no place for which I'm willing to pay the price asked. And yet, I worry/feel that I'm doing nothing to change that. It certainly won't change itself, at least not at a pace in which I can enjoy the results. So the question I ask myself is, "So what are you doing about it?". The answer, unfortunately, seems to be, "I don't know what to do" which effectively translates to nothing.
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You've affirmed to me time and time again that you're constantly in a state of evaluation, even if it is from the negative route ("I'm not this...and ok, I'm not this") --- and that is doing something, in my opinion. Which is the definitive opinion, of course ;-)
Would possibly asking 'what would enjoying the results mean?' be an angle? at least we've not discussed it.
And here, the world can start with 1 person, then 3, then several more. I know a simple reply online seems so ...er...fortune cookie...but to properly express this, I'd need 3-D multimedia functionality, and I just don't have the time at the moment. I know worries/fears aren't always rational, and it's acknowledged in calling them that, but at very least I'm going to keep on with the reminders, however repetitive, that I believe you're on the right path, you will find anything it is that you don't already have. Or rather, find a way to make peace with all of it in such a way that it won't be violating your principles. Well, the principles that should stand anyway.