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Nov. 17th, 2022 11:50 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
adrienmundiTwelve to thirteen years ago I decided that the world did not currently have a place for me with regard to my experience of my own gender. I committed to doing the best that I could from my current position, working to make the world better even if I had no expectation of seeing the change I needed/wanted in my lifetime.
A lot has changed in the intervening years, both within me and without. I need to seriously reconsider my position on this, particularly with regard to what might be better than my current state, if still not ideal. Of course capitalism complicates this (I pass as a cis guy for economic reasons), and my social anxiety and intense fear of rejection are also at play, but I shouldn't avoid things just because they are hard and scary.
This is slow going. I'm writing about it to hopefully make myself more accountable.
A lot has changed in the intervening years, both within me and without. I need to seriously reconsider my position on this, particularly with regard to what might be better than my current state, if still not ideal. Of course capitalism complicates this (I pass as a cis guy for economic reasons), and my social anxiety and intense fear of rejection are also at play, but I shouldn't avoid things just because they are hard and scary.
This is slow going. I'm writing about it to hopefully make myself more accountable.
