(reposted from the bad place, for safekeeping here)

[The following is brought to you by a lacuna carefully maintained by balancing depressants and stimulants under the watchful eye of a Baphomet mural, while serenaded by curiously modern string arrangements*]

Excerpts:

I want to talk to people about gods and magic who know more than me, but I'm very resistant to and aggressive toward people who present themselves as authorities, particularly in areas about which I care intensely (like gods and magic).

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Most (not all) magicians I've met have been egocentric assholes. Even at my most generous, I have a hard time seeing keen, rigorously questioning self-awareness, much less questioning by others. While I certainly had my own issues around both egocentrism and assholery, I did not embrace magic or alternative religio-adjacent practices until later. Interestingly, this mirrors my approach to most psychoactives (alcohol excepted).

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There is a power in darkness (which is not the same as "evil" or malicious intent). The power is important, but there is also a lushness, a richness, an appeal rooted in aesthetics and sensuality, and that's the hook set deep within me. Well, that and the feeling of familiarity/remembrance/welcome.

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What I want is a framework that is enough in common to communicate important meaning, but not so rigid or inflexible as to render less common, more unknown meaning incomprehensible or meaningless. I want a tool set that has solid beginnings, but blurred and open lines as well, so the new can be accessed.

What I want is a framework th at is enough in common to communicate important meaning, but not so rigid or inflexible as to render less common, more unknown meaning incomprehensible or meaningless. I want a tool set that has solid beginnings, but blurred and open lines as well, where there is the possibility for the new alongside tweaks of the known.

God damn it, what I'm talking about is language. High referentiality, artistic flexibility, and the possibility of containing more than is denotatively ascribed. Damn it, damn it, damn it.

*Java Lords, from 2-3:30 on a Saturday afternoon: magic time