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[adrienmundi]

As I struggle to be more overt, to hide less, to succumb less to the feeling that I *need* to hide, I come more into conflict with ideas/beliefs/structures/habits that have, or have appeared to have, forced/encouraged my relative invisibility. It's not that I am seeking this conflict; I'd rather not have it all around me, as it seems to be, but it's my experience of this that systems have inertia, and resist change. That resistance is what feels like the conflict(s) I am experiencing. I fucking hate it, but hating it won't make it go away.