Lift me from the wondermaze...*

[adrienmundi]

I've been feeling discursively disconnected lately, much more so than usual. I used to pride myself on my knowledge of alienation, kind of like a bitter connoisseur, but this feels different, somehow. It seems ironic that, in a time in which I am making new connections, recognizing more similarities than usual, that I'd feel this way, but here it is. As uncomfortable as this sounds, it's actually a little worse than that. While I can't speak with much accuracy about others, for myself, discourse seems like something I need to remain healthy/sane, or as close as it as I usually come (probably similar to how baby rats need to be stroked or toxins in their bodies will kill them). This isn't a complaint, or rather, isn't just a complaint; I can't figure out if it's an accurate description, or just my own impression (and what the difference is, I couldn't tell you). I don't know what it is, so if anyone does, I'd appreciate being clued in.




*My subconscious speaks to me oftentimes in song lyrics; they'll stay stuck in my head until I finally pay attentionand tackle the meaning being sent. Lately, I seem to be getting more multilayered messages, or just maybe finally noticing.