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Grrrrrrrrrr........
Mar. 28th, 2002 08:41 pmI'm grumpy. I hate being grumpy. Work is draining; dealing with the public is a poor career choice for a shy introvert, even if I hide it well sometimes. This weekend, because people are idiots who don't understand math, I get to deal with lots more of the public in two days than I probably would in a good week. Bleh.
I'm still having trouble with the aftereffects of arguing with P. I end up feeling hurt, insulted, misunderstood, and made more alien because of it. Yeah, it's a lot of power I give her, but she's been historically worthy of it. I do not relish the potential necessity of reclaiming it from her. I hope it doesn't come to that, but I don't know how to talk to her about it, since my Mind Thrust seems to do little to her Mental Barrier, and intellect is my, and her, usual arena.
More and more I feel outside the ken of others, while wanting more and more to enter into selectively social situations. I don't know if I feel alien as a result of feeling crappy and frustrated, or vice versa. I do not like it, Sam I Am, I do not like it at all.
I'm still having trouble with the aftereffects of arguing with P. I end up feeling hurt, insulted, misunderstood, and made more alien because of it. Yeah, it's a lot of power I give her, but she's been historically worthy of it. I do not relish the potential necessity of reclaiming it from her. I hope it doesn't come to that, but I don't know how to talk to her about it, since my Mind Thrust seems to do little to her Mental Barrier, and intellect is my, and her, usual arena.
More and more I feel outside the ken of others, while wanting more and more to enter into selectively social situations. I don't know if I feel alien as a result of feeling crappy and frustrated, or vice versa. I do not like it, Sam I Am, I do not like it at all.
