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At the risk of repitition, I have to say that lately I'm pretty much enjoying life. There are the less appealing parts, certainly, but the promise of something better, within reach, seems more present somehow than before. Things remain tense with P, at least on my end, but that is something that will be addressed, and I feel, if not comfortable, at least that addressing it is possible. The tiny one is still not quite to the point of equilibrium, but recognizes the irrationalities and reactions as out of the ordinary, and is deeply desirous to be free of them. The salt mines are still salty, but the feeling of being able to leave, even if only to find another mine, is everpresent.

There are good people in my life; for once, I am beginning to believe that they mean to be present, mean what they say, and can be trusted. The list of true friends, those who's gaze carries only the weight of their own eyes and ideas, may not be any larger than at any point before, but I can at the least acknowledge them now (my apologies to any who may have been slighted in the past, due to neurotic blindness on my part). I will attempt to use the power of naming for good: tiny one, MH, relentless, MFG, P (who has no idea this even exists, but still should be named), champignon, and doubtless more that my sleep addled brain cannot grasp at the moment; know that interactions are pleasant, meaningful, kindly regarded, and much, much appreciated. Thank you, all.