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Everything seems so... hard, lately. I keep feeling that I can do better, in all things, but I'm not. I'm not connecting with people the way I would like, and it's likely stupid things that are holding me back. I'm listening to the voice that tells me what's wrong with how I want to interact, the one that paints me pictures of limits, and neuroses, and all the "why you can't/shouldn't", from my side and the (presumed) side of others.

I could be more trusting, but I'm afraid. I could be warmer, but I worry that it's not welcomed, or even unwanted. I could be more active, but find reasons not to. I could be doing so much more, be so much more, but I'm not.