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I don't speak directly, even here, often, for fear of being reframed in such a way as to serve the needs or understandings of others. The "logic" of it is that I should not take action that will be interpretted in such a way as to actively lead others to believe things about me that are wrong, are not at all true. I do not want to be drafted, or have my words and experiences drafted, to be used in support of things which I actively hate. And so I am silent, or cryptic, transmitting relatively no meaning intentionally, and my apparent inaction is interpretted by many, drafted to serve that which I hate.

Something fucking has to give. I don't want to start this all over again, every day. If pressure builds diamonds, why aren't I Emma Frost by now?