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Feb. 6th, 2005 03:03 pmHad a mild "migraine"* today; I'd been having precursorial symptoms for about a week, so it isn't really all that surprising. Come to think of it, it may have been triggered by eating breakfast with my beloved outside in the sun this morning. It's hard to ignore the world and my connection to it when I'm revelling in just that.
Things I noticed about my episodes:
My eyes do not like to be "corrected". Glasses and contacts just have to go.
Darkness is better than artificial light, natural light is better than darkness, and sunlight is the best of all.
I always want to smell and hear outside when this hits. I think it helps connect me to what is demanding to be acknowledged, anyway.
It always goes better if I just relax into it, and don't try to make it anything other than it is. Pushing for meaning or insight is useless, but something always comes out of it when I just let go.
I know it's the same sun that shines down on everyone; I really, really, really hope I'm not the only one that gets what I get out of it.
*I really need a better word for them; there's not a lot of pain or discomfort associated with them, unless I feel pressured to interact with the world in conventional ways, in which case it becomes extremely disorienting and distressing.
Things I noticed about my episodes:
My eyes do not like to be "corrected". Glasses and contacts just have to go.
Darkness is better than artificial light, natural light is better than darkness, and sunlight is the best of all.
I always want to smell and hear outside when this hits. I think it helps connect me to what is demanding to be acknowledged, anyway.
It always goes better if I just relax into it, and don't try to make it anything other than it is. Pushing for meaning or insight is useless, but something always comes out of it when I just let go.
I know it's the same sun that shines down on everyone; I really, really, really hope I'm not the only one that gets what I get out of it.
*I really need a better word for them; there's not a lot of pain or discomfort associated with them, unless I feel pressured to interact with the world in conventional ways, in which case it becomes extremely disorienting and distressing.
