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Feb. 27th, 2005 12:22 pmEvery time I cannot articulate my experiences, my ineffable conflict with the world of people and my assigned role in it, I always feel shallow, stupid, or both. Invariably, it seems that people want to talk specifics, and then it all seems to dissipate into smoke, leaving only the seemingly concrete, which is antisynnergistic, but in the absence of... .whatever holds it together in/for me, does seem shallow and relatively meaningless. Is this an instance of not being able to talk about something, express something, unless one has experienced it or something close to it? I don't want to believe in experiences like that; I don't subscribe to the idea of initiatory knowledge and communication (probably in part because it offense my sense of egalitarianism and potentiality), but me not believing in something doesn't necessarily keep it from maybe, sort of being the case.