this or that?

this:

practicing strict self-denial as a measure of personal and especially spiritual discipline

that:

the subjection and denial of bodily passions and appetites by abstinence or self-inflicted pain or discomfort

(in the intereests of fair and accurate reporting, that was modified by "mental")

(no subject)

Had another unpleasant dream (that echoed far too obviously too many of my waking concerns) that had me up before the alarm clock again today. I'm starting to pine for the solid sleep of oblivion, if I can't have illuminating and symbolic dreams.

poetic genius

"...heavy deeds
make heavy hearts and to them
life is suffering. stand clear."

-Dianne DiPrima

too lazy for a cut tag

1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at?:
Eyes, unless I'm checking to see if I look stupid, fat, or give too much away.

2. How much cash do you have on you?:
None.

3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"?:
Palimpsest

4. Favorite plant?:
Jasmine

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?:
work

6. What is your main ring tone on your cell phone?:
generic ring #3

7. What shirt are you wearing?:
I'm not.

8. What do you "label" yourself?:
I don't.

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?:
New Balance

10. Bright or Dark Room?:
Natural light if at all possible.

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?:
Strange, occasionally troubling, totally worth the effort.

12. Ever "spilled the beans"?:
yes

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?:
In bed, brooding, trying to sleep.

14. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say?:
I don't do text messages.

15. Do you ever click on "Pop Ups" or Banners?:
Not unless by accident.

16. What's a saying that you say a lot?:
"I don't know..."

17. Who told you they loved you last?:
person: my beloved Janiene. not-person: the wind in the trees

19. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past Three Days?:
none, sadly

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?:
none. I'm not a picture taker.

21. Favorite age you have been so far?:
I'm hoping it's some future age.

22. Your worst enemy?:
either me, or The System.

23 What is your current desktop picture?:
blue sky framed by four walls and turrets of a ruined castle.

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?:
"Hi"

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret?:
A million bucks would do a lot of good for me and my loved ones.

26. Do you love/like someone?
quite a few, yes.