well, crap

I asked my endocrinologist back in October for a referral to a generalist, specifically stating that it had been the stigma associated with being transgender, and not at all willing to be pigeonholed into the generally expected transsexual trajectory, that had kept me from seeing a doctor for several years. He quickly recommended another doctor at the Emory Clinic that had other transgender patients. Over the course of two months, I worked up the courage to call her, only to discover that she's not accepting new patients. So, after a couple of attempts at contact, I got a call from a nurse on behalf of my endo, who said I could just call and speak to anyone in internal medicine, as they don't know who is and isn't accepting patients. It makes me feel as though my concerns have just been brushed aside, and adds inertia to my already pretty strong aversion to doctors. It feels as though I'm back to start, on my own, with no easy in. Just, yuck.