off

I'm just off today. I've had the feeling for days now that there's work I need to do, want to do, only... I don't know what work it is. I hate the feeling of nothing fitting, of feeling like I'm doing everything wrong, somehow, only I don't know what right is. It's not like I'm unwilling to do something; I'm not, I just don't know what.

adding to metaphors

Altered states are not always/just keys opening locks. Lately they've also become erosive forces, wearing away at things that don't need to be there any more.

on the docket

Hot pizza, cold alcohol, hot fairy, and loud, loud music.