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Sometimes, maybe the best thing about noting similarity is also being able to note and appreciate difference, rather than attempting to overdesignate by expectations of point by point conformity. How fortunate for me that I've encountered you at this point in my life, rather than some earlier time. From what I can see, you've a prodigious intellect, wide ranging curiousity, and a drive to personal honesty and exploration of which the world could use a bit more. Maybe it's distance that makes interpersonal rifts and lacunae feel productive, but I'm thinking (hoping) that's not the case.

on dissolution

I can't remember if I claimed dissolution first, or if it claimed me; currently I prefer thinking of it as a mutual mad embrace of passion. Hell, I can't even remember when I claimed it (anyone? scottopic?) But right now, my struggles with binaries and rigid categorizations seem to manifest all over the place, like suddenly being able to see green between blue and yellow: my gender issues, obviously; my take on bodies and desire (theoretically; still working on practice); politics; my historical problems with the endorsed academic path; even my problems with hierarchicalized 'spirituality'. I guess, since it's here, I should just embrace it, huh? :)