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Before it seemed like you fell off the map, your trajectory seemed pretty solidly seated in the happy/content/optimistic territory. One of the most admirable traits about you was always your willingness to engage in fun and goofiness for it's own sake; the amusement of others was just a fortuitous byproduct. I've no reason to expect this has changed, and every hope that you spread this attitude like a happy contagion to everyone with whom you come into contact.

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God damn, I hate totalizing discourses. I mean, really, really hate. If there's anything that really fires up my "fuck you" and resonates down to the molten core, it's the totalizing drive to reorder overlapping realities into rigid systems and hierarchies, and I don't care who does it. Most recently, it's the Zeno's paradox of identity politics that gets me going, though to be sure, I'm extra pissed that I'm always spoken for in a way that robs me of my voice, that it's never my turn (see all my bitching about feminism and its premises, or how transgender has come to mean basically transsexual for examples), compounded by the agreed upon need to change the inequity and injustice in how things are right now, on the ground. I'm sure if I were a better person, I'd be able to engage in coalition building, but the conundrum there is how can just one person coalesce with other groups without being lost or drowned out, but how to organize as a member of a group without replicating the same problem? Because honestly, leaving things as they are just isn't acceptable. I don't want to be, or work for, the new boss, damn it, I want to bring the bosses to their fucking knees.