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I feel unprepared for something that I've known was looming for a long time. I'm unwilling to just endure, but don't see how I can change the way things will likely play out. I can't just ignore things much longer, and I am not able to ignore the effects and consequences that dealing with others will bring. I want to cry out that it's unfair, that nothing of value can be built from the meager materials I've been given to work with, and that which can be built will never be sufficient, but who will listen, and what will change if they do?