shift in metaphor

It feels like I keep coming back around to the same issues, over and over. A lot of the time, this drives me crazy, makes me feel like I haven't made any progress, that I'm stuck in a loop. More recently, I find myself saying or thinking, 'but it's different this time', like some additional insight is added to the same big mess. I get frustrated, because it doesn't seem to point me towards solutions, or even lessening of conflict, but there is a sense of... something. Maybe it's like an ink wash, going back over and over the same area, slowly bringing out more detail, rather than just retracing known lines.

As I do this, I find I still have a lot of anger and frustration. That's not lessening, though it does seem to be changing with time. It's less jagged, less... structured, bent, but maybe also stronger, more real, more legitimate. Maybe anger is what will burn away some of what needs to go, to help clear space.