fever lucid

My brain works oddly when I'm sick. I'm not sure if it works better, giving me a different perspective; I used to think that. Now, I'm entertaining the idea that I'm taking advantage of irregular processing, using the fever to ignore, hopefully burn over, some of the rigid lines of the way my head normally works.

Last night between 4:00 and 5:00-ish, I might have made some big progress, jolting me out of a fever dream with an image and attached concept that gives me hope for a lot of liberating movement, at least in the micro-local. I'm trying not to worry about the macro just yet; it will come later, whether I want it or not.