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Disturbing dream within a dream, situational and off, such that I stopped myself and tried to determine "Did this really happen, or was it in a dream?" While still asleep, I did all the work (tracing, replaying, comparing to "actual" (dream) events, etc, before coming to the conclusion that yeah, it happened in a dream, which I realized said way more about me than about the dream actor or event.

Upon waking, unsurprisingly, it doubly stuck with me, all the ick, none of the external accountability. My head is one fucked up, neurotic place lately.