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Dec. 20th, 2012 11:06 amI haven't really written here in a long time. I haven't really written in a personal way in a long time, and that's what I primarily used this space for.
Lately I've been struggling with feeling like I'm less than I used to be. I'm not really sure what to do about that. I know I'm notably different than I was even a few years ago. It's possible these are pains and insecurities associated with losing what had been a frame of reference, and not (yet?) having a new one.
I have new fears with which I don't think I'm coping well. I don't feel up to the task of facing them, and avoidance isn't really doing the trick, either. I feel small, weak, rudderless, insufficient to the challenges before me and haunted by the past. If only life were as simple as "A Christmas Carol".
Lately I've been struggling with feeling like I'm less than I used to be. I'm not really sure what to do about that. I know I'm notably different than I was even a few years ago. It's possible these are pains and insecurities associated with losing what had been a frame of reference, and not (yet?) having a new one.
I have new fears with which I don't think I'm coping well. I don't feel up to the task of facing them, and avoidance isn't really doing the trick, either. I feel small, weak, rudderless, insufficient to the challenges before me and haunted by the past. If only life were as simple as "A Christmas Carol".
