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Jan. 23rd, 2019 09:07 pmI am incredibly tired of feeling ashamed. There is fear tied up in this, both generatively and operationally, but even if I could put aside shame tomorrow, fear is a separate opportunistic beast. I would like to focus on nuts and bolts, the actual steps involved. It is a tendency of my mind and (mal)adaptive strategies to model every imaginable way things could go wrong, and rush models to their logical worst possible conclusion.