two (of legion)

[adrienmundi]

I'm really beginning to worry that I'm becoming "difficult". I have this nagging fear that I'm coming to be viewed as troubling: too much work; someone one has to be careful not to offend; one around whom others must tread lightly. I worry that I am coming to be seen as no fun, as just not worth the effort, depressing, unpredictable, as one likely to turn in the hand. My problem is that I don't know when to shut the hell up, when others don't care what I see or how I see it. I worry that I am seen as harsh, unkind, judgemental, arrogant, and thinking I'm superior. I don't think any of those are true, but they're labels that have dogged my steps for years and years, and may have been at one time accurate. Not everyone cares about what I care about, or about me. Add more to the list of things I need to learn to accept.