i really don't think that this is the beginning of crazy. i think you are weary of mankind, of your questions, of what you do to get through your days.

a self-imposed solitudinal sabbatical would be highly in order for you. where you don't make yourself "do" anything or "go" anywhere necessarily, but where you put up high boundaries and be quiet and still and shut out everything which impinges upon you for a time. it sounds like i'm advocating a vacation of avoidance, but it's not that really. more like the healing powers of hermiting...