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Sep. 12th, 2006 06:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
adrienmundiThe feeling of a 'migraine' coming on is hard to describe. It's not pain, really, but like something is giving a firm nudge (sometimes a hard shove) to the side of my reality filter. When it's gentler, it's like something trying to get my attention, but willing to go away if I ignore the shaky picture, weird sensory hallucinations and tugs at my mind. When it's insistent, it's like something has knocked me out of my chair, grabbed onto my temples and won't be happy until it's pushed something in/pulled something out of me.
Today started out like a gentle nudge. I had a very, very mild precursor around 11:00 or so (about the time the major web app I support refused access to everyone, actually). I noticed myself getting more and more irritable, and my peripheral vision was more on, making it hard to filter or prioritize things in the center. Lunch was nice and calm, a walk in the cool, unpopulated greyness, and then reading of skiadaimonos's dissertation chapter, but after that, the gentle tug got more and more insistent and forceful. I tried tylenol and caffiene, but that didn't work; the longer I was in the work environment, with its forced inorganic overlay and conventions, flourescent lights and interrupting sounds, the worse it got. I lasted about 90 minutes, and then had to go.
There were no obvious visions once I got home, but open windows and no light means I lost almost an hour in the space that isn't sleep and isn't wakefulness. Now it feels like something is there, in my head, but isn't finished processing yet; it's internal now, and I'm curious to see what comes of the installation, or if I'll even notice once it's done.
Today started out like a gentle nudge. I had a very, very mild precursor around 11:00 or so (about the time the major web app I support refused access to everyone, actually). I noticed myself getting more and more irritable, and my peripheral vision was more on, making it hard to filter or prioritize things in the center. Lunch was nice and calm, a walk in the cool, unpopulated greyness, and then reading of skiadaimonos's dissertation chapter, but after that, the gentle tug got more and more insistent and forceful. I tried tylenol and caffiene, but that didn't work; the longer I was in the work environment, with its forced inorganic overlay and conventions, flourescent lights and interrupting sounds, the worse it got. I lasted about 90 minutes, and then had to go.
There were no obvious visions once I got home, but open windows and no light means I lost almost an hour in the space that isn't sleep and isn't wakefulness. Now it feels like something is there, in my head, but isn't finished processing yet; it's internal now, and I'm curious to see what comes of the installation, or if I'll even notice once it's done.
