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adrienmundiIf I'm honest with myself (an ongoing project), I can admit to a lot of envy for a lot of people, in simple, straight forward ways; I wish I could do/have X like person Z"*. More and more lately, it's not a tool utilized to punish myself for... whatever; like James Dean, my historical answer has tended to be, "What do ya got?". So, envy, for what it's worth, feels like progress. If you're reading this, odds are good you're on the list of the envied.
But I think most of the time, I realize it's an unbalanced way of seeing the world and the people in it, a one way syllogism, if you will. I can see the enviable traits in others, and I can envy them, but I may be blind to the enviable traits I possess (assuming they're there).
So, you know, maybe this is a desperate plea for some ego love, or maybe it's a struggle for balanced perspective (honestly, probably bits of both), but if you're so inclined, I'm curious what, if anything, might be enviable about me. Who knows, maybe we can swap perspectives for a bit, and maybe get better together.
*which is very different than jealousy or spite; I don't have X like person Z, and I want to take it away from them/wish they didn't have it either"
But I think most of the time, I realize it's an unbalanced way of seeing the world and the people in it, a one way syllogism, if you will. I can see the enviable traits in others, and I can envy them, but I may be blind to the enviable traits I possess (assuming they're there).
So, you know, maybe this is a desperate plea for some ego love, or maybe it's a struggle for balanced perspective (honestly, probably bits of both), but if you're so inclined, I'm curious what, if anything, might be enviable about me. Who knows, maybe we can swap perspectives for a bit, and maybe get better together.
*which is very different than jealousy or spite; I don't have X like person Z, and I want to take it away from them/wish they didn't have it either"
