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[adrienmundi]

Speaking with New Therapist this week, one of the things that came up was that my willingness to suffer for principle, even(especially) if no one else knew or understood, was likely rooted in a drive toward consistency. I remember being in trouble constantly as a child for calling out adults, parents, authority figures when their words and deeds, or their words and words, didn't match, and refusing to change my actions or words even when punishment was certain. I remember it feeling as though adults could not be trusted to act consistently, to act on their stated beliefs and principles, and that feeling very out of my control. All I could control was how I implemented my own beliefs and principles, even in the face of coercion and punishment. It doesn't seem like all that much has changed for me over the years.