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It's probably symptomatic of the strange moodiness and emotionality I've been experiencing for the past ... however long that I'll vacillate between feelings of incredible potential right in front of me, and feelings of perpetual fragility and inertia. Maybe Ian Curtis was right, that "something must break", indeed, but it'd be nice if I could decide what, when, and where, rather than having to react to the event when it comes. I don't know what needs to change, or how, but I'm pretty sure something does, and soon.

This started off to be longer, but now doesn't seem to have any need to go on.