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The challenge remains finding a way to live off the line, when all the world firmly believes that the line is all that is possible.

note the sun imagery, please :)

I want to touch you like the morning rays of sunlight,
golden, warm and gentle,
the first experience of beauty revealed in every loving detail.

stuck in my head for weeks

You're paying a price when there's no price to pay...*

I wish it were so, Lou, I wish it were so... But just because I shouldn't have to pay a price doesn't mean people still won't insist that I do.






*no real relation in my mind to the line immediately following; I think my subconscious means it more generally

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I need to find a way to make things that are less than satisfying, but currently necessary, more satisfying. If large pieces of my life will be consumed, surely there has to be a way to make that consumption less grating. I don't think all of this is related to constant performance of a known untruth, but I strongly suspect that's a part of it. I just... I just want dealings with people that are more than ankle deep most of the time. I want to feel like I can answer honestly when someone asks me how I'm doing, and take the time to hear an honest answer when I ask it (in most cases, I really do want to hear the answer). I want to be able to connect to the world (people and not-people) without feeling like I have to hold back, to hold in.

I think I need the other half of the battle; this part, I know.