condensed

To partake in beauty, one should participate in beauty.

'N' *

I have been struggling very hard to be more honest, more open here. I think I'm making progress, but of course it's slower than I want, and I can see tons more work to be done. No rest for the ambiguous, I guess.






*better than 'U', I guess

confession of complicity

There are times that I actively resist realizing someone is a subject/agent when they possess traits (usually physical) I that I envy. It's easier, somehow, to pretend there is nothing, or the negative, underneath that which I long for but can't have, than to face the fact that it's a real human being that deserves to be acknowledged. It's shameful, but it's present in me.