a clarification

Something my therapist said to me recently struck me wrong, and has stuck with me. When discussing how to live in the larger social world while at the same time working to meet my own need for pursuit of personal authenticity, she said something about how it would undoubtedly be difficult for anyone "working towards true androgyny". The thing is, I'm not sure I'm pursuing "true androgyny" (presuming that I knew what it was), and worry that if I've given this impression to my therapist, that I might have given it to others, as well.

What I'm after is me-ness, not really dependent on traditional conceptions of 'masculinity' or 'femininity' (again, even if I knew what those were). It may be splitting hairs, but androgyny, to me, means an intentional mixing of those sets, from within the existing contexts, and I honestly don't think that's what I'm about. I don't want to be, or present, fixity, any end state; I want to be able to select things I want based on my wanting them at that point in time, not necessarily based on someone else's categorizations and assignments.

I swear, this made sense in my head before I started; now, I'm not so sure.

a question

Do you perceive me as angry? Do any of you worry that I am likely to go off at any given moment, unleashing a tirade of which you will bear the brunt? Has this changed in any way over time?