sun + storm clouds + caffiene + therapy

excerpts:

"I don't understand why they (mtfs) would choose to only be afraid, to deny their past, but if they want to, it's their deal. I don't understand, though, why the fuck they'd want to do the same thing to others just to make themselves feel better, and god help them if they try to do it to me. I'm done with taking shit from mtfs."

"What I want is to work with others to help them dismantle the baffles around the light inside of them so they can shine out openly."


(plus a lot of enthusiastic, good natured anger and cursing)

to do list

poke at family/community/connection issued
bitch about/investigate passing, mandatory models, flexibility and "safety nets"
bitch about/investigate differences in connection/community between mt* and ft*
find a way to implement ideological sabotage and self-excision

und auch

"My understanding of any initiatory experience isn't that after it, "true life" begins or that everything is suddenly perfect, but that you continue to do everyday things, only everyday things come to be extraordinary."