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I worry, probably too much, about accidentally offending you. It's not that I think you're easily offended, or that I'm overly offensive, but I think I know too well the struggle with structure and meaning, of the uncontrollable implications of positionality and assignment, of not wanting anyone else to feel how you've been made to feel. This fear is diminishing with time, as stronger history and connection come to overshadow fear and doubt, which leaves me more free to enjoy the you that exists right now, rather than the recursive trigger I sometimes respond to you like. I'm happy for the change, but impatient for more.

filtering

I'm making a filter, specifically for... not so much spiritual things, since I don't like the dualism so often implied by that usage, not metaphysical for similar (as well as philological) reasons, so for what? Loosely, then, connections/connectedness, beyond strict human definitions, what I tend to think of multiply as the world, "doing something", friends and extended family; to use the phrase I've come to like, invisible stuff. If you'd like to be on it, let me know. You're welcome to ask questions, though I'm not at all sure I'll have answers.

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Round two of self injections (first time unsupervised) went without extreme trauma.

It's still damned weird, though.