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Strange dreams about a dark, large school like environment (felt sort of like a sprawling highschool, with some people I knew from then, a lot of seemingly high school/college aged kids), going to see a doctor there and finding out my back pain was bad and chronic, then sitting outside a classroom while my doctor talked to other doctors about my case, insurance and treatment, and realizing he was trying to work the system in my favor (which was different than my initial impression of 'too bad, get used to it, there's nothing we can do'). Strange bathroom that had small, low urinals set at random places around the floor, meant to indicate it was intended for young kids, and a gang of delinquent youth hanging out on a table in the back who I knew were meant to be threatening, but that I didn't qualify for their threat level(?)(they were too low/I was too high).
Walking out, following others leaving in vehicles (SUVs?) through a narrow road in a thick wood, I turned off on foot and started walking down a railroad track. About half way to a T intersection with another train track, I realized someone I thought was my mother was following me. I went to the T and saw a large, dark train coming from my right, and had to back down the way I'd come, for there was no room otherwise. The train was loud, almost frighteningly so.
Then someone I thought of initially as a headless horseman came galloping down the tracks on a dark horse, but I could see he wasn't headless, just holding the severed head of a red king, and I recognized him as some tarot card. Suddenly the railroad spur I was on filled with other symbolic characters that I felt sure were other cards, though just off so as to not be clearly recognizable (though in the dream I took their meaning easily, and saw the suits they fell into).
After that I was wandering almost dazed with a guide (not anyone I thought of as my mom; some strange dark haired guy) along a path/hallway with others who seemed confused, often with distorted features that seemed to embody the confusion. I stopped at a doorway where it looked like a higher math seminar was going on and focused on what was being said. My guide nudged me and said something like 'go ahead', so I stepped inside. The speaker paused and asked me if I had a question, with a bemused air, as though people like me (the confused wandering ones) couldn't be coherent. I asked my question, and the mood changed in the room as they realized I was more fully present, capable of fully engaged awareness. The speaker said something like 'At least this one's face isn't distorted/disfigured (referencing the symbolism of some in between state)' and started to engage me. My guide watched from the door, and then I woke up.
I definitely had the feeling of being visited by cards or archetypes, and then of being present and conscious in a place where many go, but are dazed and almost sleepwalking.
Walking out, following others leaving in vehicles (SUVs?) through a narrow road in a thick wood, I turned off on foot and started walking down a railroad track. About half way to a T intersection with another train track, I realized someone I thought was my mother was following me. I went to the T and saw a large, dark train coming from my right, and had to back down the way I'd come, for there was no room otherwise. The train was loud, almost frighteningly so.
Then someone I thought of initially as a headless horseman came galloping down the tracks on a dark horse, but I could see he wasn't headless, just holding the severed head of a red king, and I recognized him as some tarot card. Suddenly the railroad spur I was on filled with other symbolic characters that I felt sure were other cards, though just off so as to not be clearly recognizable (though in the dream I took their meaning easily, and saw the suits they fell into).
After that I was wandering almost dazed with a guide (not anyone I thought of as my mom; some strange dark haired guy) along a path/hallway with others who seemed confused, often with distorted features that seemed to embody the confusion. I stopped at a doorway where it looked like a higher math seminar was going on and focused on what was being said. My guide nudged me and said something like 'go ahead', so I stepped inside. The speaker paused and asked me if I had a question, with a bemused air, as though people like me (the confused wandering ones) couldn't be coherent. I asked my question, and the mood changed in the room as they realized I was more fully present, capable of fully engaged awareness. The speaker said something like 'At least this one's face isn't distorted/disfigured (referencing the symbolism of some in between state)' and started to engage me. My guide watched from the door, and then I woke up.
I definitely had the feeling of being visited by cards or archetypes, and then of being present and conscious in a place where many go, but are dazed and almost sleepwalking.
