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Ow, following weird, following pretty fucking all right.

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One of the things I worry about is not being attractive due to paucity of conceptual categories. I struggle with this myself a fair amount, in relation to myself, and I'm deeply invested in me, so I imagine reception by others has a high chance of being even more problematic. On another hand, there is something potentially positive in being able to access a degree of self-objectification*. This gets unfair negative attention in some mtf-flavored trans analysis under "autogynephilia", but it's coiner, Ray Blanchard, could use a healthy exposure to a Butlerian analysis of the imaginary body everyone carries within themselves. In almost English, everyone can, and probably has at times, viewed their body a positively charged with sexual/attractive potential, and that seems healthy so long as it's balanced with an appreciation of the limits of others and the realization that snogging/fucking/whatever, while a birthright for all, is not contingent on you filling an active role for a given person/moment.

Fuck, I had something else to say, but it's gone now.





*(I think objectification gets a bad rap; who doesn't want to occasionally be looked at with the idea of "Damn, I'd like to (verb) that (noun)"? The problems arise when one is only viewed as an object, not subject).