adrienmundi

I tried to make my hair uniformly very light blonde today, and instead ended up with a weird, darker than usual ash blonde. I'm thinking this color won't last long, especially if I have my way.

This weekend was a quiet one of reclaiming the house. I always feel like such an idiot once it's done, but a cleaner, tidier home always makes me feel better; why don't I remember this when I'm unhappy, when I don't want to come home during the week?

Shopped for work clothing with the saintly fairyhead yesterday, which was... challenging. Carrying an insulating, internal distance from what was going on and what it all meant helped, but I don't think that's a sustainable longterm solution. Making the best of a bad situation often means it's just a better flavor of bad, sadly.

Thinking about things that make me feel bad, and what I do with that bad feeling. There seems to be a lot more to look into on this.

In fifteen hours, I'll be seeing the endocrinologist. I have a curious absence where I thought anxiety would be; I suspect it's a coping mechanism.