realization

[adrienmundi]

I'm skilled in a medium I distrust, and sometimes actively dislike. I use it to complain about my inability to use it, or to flirt with using it, but I'm only ever just a tease. I worry that I've nothing to say, or that what I do have to say is meaningless. I lack discipline that might make this functional, instead pissing it away like an aging diletantte. I want to write, but am afraid of words.

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[adrienmundi]

I'm sure it's exemplary of some divine irony, but in my mind, you're unquestionably talented and at least disciplined enough to produce things of value. I'm sure that matters not a lot in relation to self perception, though.