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[adrienmundi]

Two nights running, I've had strange dreams about sharing living spaces with others, and attendant weirdness. Sunday, I was sharing something like... dormspace? At one point, it was like a cross between the older dorms at UGA and at Shorter College. I'm not sure why I was there, but it was academically oriented. The dorm changed into a dream analog of the apartment my family lived in between 1974 and 1977, and I was sharing the space with a kind of bitchy girl. I remember at some point trying to move through the apartment dorm to take a shower, and the awkwardness of needing to cover myself with a towel so as to not give myself away (I think I was supposed to be a "guy", but had my current physique) to the girl and... our other roommate? another young, kinda bitchy girl who suddenly appeared, with a new bedroom, in the apartment.

Last night, I think it started with going very far north (it was still Alpharetta, even though it was like 90 minutes north, on a twisty road with lots of switchbacks that became wooden halls for part of it) to a hotel/restaraunt/house? There were high wooden ceilings, wide rooms, and the neatest natural gas fire pit: it was in the center of a room, running 2/3 of the room with fire coming from under huge granite rocks the entire length, and a seperate, more conventionally fire-like flame at the end, near the dais that led to the decadent bathroom. It was public space most of the time, but there was also a hotel room that I originally thought was mine alone, but later realized I was sharing with karma_navit, though I don't recall seeing her. Again, at some point I was moving from the room to the shower area, and realized I'd taken off my shirt without thinking. I tried to casually cover my chest walking past the four or so people in the public area, and remember hoping they'd be distracted by my tattoos and not notice anything else.

Weird. Interpret away, any who care to do so.

Comments

[k-navit.livejournal.com]

I always wake up feeling kind of weird after dreams like that, which I have relatively often. Mine are frequently dorms at the place I went to college the first time, or else the one-room beach house that has bed space for twenty lining the walls, that my family shares. Oh, or public bathrooms where people agressively and deliberately insist on busting in on me, damn them. The latter happened in yesterday's dreams.

I really love the ones where I'm a stripper again only I haven't shaved the things a stripper needs to shave and I realize it when I'm already on stage.

I dunno. I think my "communal space" dreams are about anxiety or at least thought ref. interactions on the social/familial/whichever is appropriate horizon. The beach house family esp. The stripper ones are more general, I think, about the disconnect (perceived or real) between how I see myself and how others see me, the mask of the Chariot, the pair of high heels, the sublime feathered masks of the ego lol

What do you think about your "spaces"? I think it's a fascinating topic.

Other thought -- most people with breasts that I know have dreams about their exposure more often than exposure of another part of the body. I think prior to breast development, like with my daughter, the "social nakedness" dream is more likely to be a standard "forgot my pants one" that seems to affect every kid in the country at some point. I wonder what's up with that. I have never asked anybody with a penis if the penis has a similar dream-role; I have somehow always assumed it does NOT. The complexity of thought and the webs of constructs of shame and exposure woven around this issue are sort of a trip. I'm going to be doing random surveys on this, I think... it's interesting.

[adrienmundi]

I've had the "I'm naked" or "I'm only wearing a shirt and nothing else" dreams before, and assumed they were of the standard meaning/variety. In the most recent dreams, I was consciously (at least in dream context) aware of my topless body being different than that of the assignment and expectations of others, and being neurotic about it. In other words, it wasn't "ooh, I can see your boobies!", but "you're not supposed to have boobies". The general context makes sense, but the setting and specifics seem... like there's meaning, only I don't understand it yet.

"Spaces": interesting question. Upon waking, the tall, wide wooden A-frame building with the long fire seemed... almost tribal? Like it wasn't a place, but A Place, that meant something to those present, but again, I didn't understand it. Colors were dark brown stain, red, grey and flame. The apartment/dorm was more... private, but shared by another (then two): green and grey and off white seemed to dominate.