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[adrienmundi]

Last night, I dreamed I was at work and trying to explain my position to someone. My boss walked up and said, "No, remember, you're on that new track; your position is janissary". Suddenly, in dream logic, I remembered that the other track was about people and management and the like, and saw the word janisary written in sort of light purple. Even within the dream context, though, the title bothered me. I couldn't figure out what any of that had to do with axes, muskets and terror, and the idea of being an exotic terrorist for upper management did not sit well.


I've been having a lot of really unusual dreams for weeks now, and it bugs me that I don't know what they mean. At least I'm not waking up recently confused about the line between dream and waking, or deeply weirded out. Now, I'm just taking it for granted that they're odd, and their meaning is inaccessible to me.


I have been waking into incredible sadness, and that feeling isn't ever really all that far from me most days. It's like I'm mourning the loss of something, or I'm in the process of losing something, only I don't know what it is. I'd really prefer my grief to be connected to something, please.

Comments

[k-navit.livejournal.com]

Wow, a cross between a janitor, an emissary, an executive, a French revolutionary and a dwarf of Middle Earth. Did they give you any grenades? I always get upset when I have those weapons dreams and don't get any grenades.

[adrienmundi]

In the dream context, it was very clear to me that someone probably took the title because they thought it sounded cool, rather than because they did any real research. I was wondering about what I knew of the historical weaponry, not that I expected to be given any, particularly in the workplace (I don't think my immediate manager would be that unwise).

[thegoodwill.livejournal.com]

Do dreams really have hidden meanings????

;^)


Waking up that way is no good, though. Especially so close to your Sun's high point. Boo.

Oh yeah, when I read your post about swimming and gym access, I grimaced knowing the trouble the locker rooms would probably give you. But I do have a solution for you! First buy a house (cuz I know that is easy), then get an in-room pool. I guess if you had the house you could go for an outdoor pool, but those aren't very good for lap-like sustained swims.