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[adrienmundi]

As obssessed as I have become with Boris' situation, and my reaction to it, I feel guilty that I'm not more obssessed, that I can still function normally, and even enjoy things in the midst of this whole aweful, horrible, predictable situation. I know it's not rational, but knowing that doesn't prevent me from feeling bad about not feeling worse.

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[laughingwoman.livejournal.com]

i would hazard to guess that you're functioning at a relatively "normal" level despite this because you've already come near to losing him once, and recently, and began a grieving process then. since that time you have psychologically steeled yourself for this eventuality, and probably come to some peace with it.

that's not something to beat yourself up over, even if me saying that doesn't stop it from happening. cats, even sick cats, can sense distress in their loved ones. your lack of *extreme* distress can only serve him well.

[adrienmundi]

Fairyhead suggests that I'm in crisis mode, and that if there is more sadness or depression, it will come after the dreaded inevitable. I am trying not to break down around Boris, because I know he worries when I'm upset, but it strikes me as strange that I'm not breaking down not around him more.

Thanks, though; you're one of several important voices encouraging me not to be harsh with myself, and I do try to listen.

[celticmoni.livejournal.com]

I fight this feeling *constantly*....

[scoutfinch3237.livejournal.com]

Don't forget, bubba, you are still #1 servant in Boris's house! ; ) Keepin' on keepin' on gives him a sense of normalcy. Cats don't like change or the wrong kind of fuss, so you really are choosing the best behavior.