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You want to want more, but are afraid to actually want. This is a damned shame, and one I know all too well. It's easy to say when it's about someone else, but if you don't ask, you can't receive. Don't make the mistake of pushing others towards more (no matter that they want and/or deserve it) at the expense of your own initiative; you deserve this, too.