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[adrienmundi]

God damn it, I need new schema. The old ones work in the short term, but the long term costs are starting to pile up and creep back to hollow out any enjoyment in the moment (satisfaction is long gone).

I need to rebuild. I can see a possible way out, but that requires a lot more strength and ability to clear things out than I think I possess right now. The irony is not lost on me; I've outgrown the old, but am not strong enough to create the new.

Grrrrrrr.