I think I knew this, or was getting to know it. What I still don't know is precisely why, and while I have heard bits on what you feel/fear would happen were you to totally uncurl/connect/project (bad word, but fumbling)/stand up/push, I also don't know what would actually happen.
But I think it wouldn't be entirely what you think.
I want to get over this fear, really badly, but I don't know how, and the fear itself is tautologically self-sustaining; the way to get over fears is to face them, but I'm too scared to let go to learn that letting go isn't so scary.
I want to believe that what will happen isn't necessarily what I think, but I don't, yet. I'm hoping for change.
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Date: 2009-06-30 04:00 pm (UTC)But I think it wouldn't be entirely what you think.
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Date: 2009-06-30 11:02 pm (UTC)I want to believe that what will happen isn't necessarily what I think, but I don't, yet. I'm hoping for change.