Doctors (again)

[adrienmundi]

Doctors freak me out; I've never liked going to see them. This might go back to the hazy, hazy memory I have as a kid, literally running and screaming in a doctor's office before finally being caught and given a shot (I was likely two or three at the time).

It's more complicated for me now, with the hormones and the like. I haven't seen a doctor since begining taking them (I did all the research myself, and am self-medicating). I worry about having to explain all this to an unprepared doctor, and worry about the potential judgement and disapproval of a medical professional. I also worry about the potential consequences of that disapproval and judgement, should they beome actual. However, I can also see potential benefits from a good working relationship with a nonjudgemental doctor. The doses, or mix, of drugs may be not quite right for my body/metabolism, or may not be the best method for obtaining the results for which I'm looking.

So, anyone have any advice to offer, other than, "Just do it"?

Comments

[subjective.livejournal.com]

i tend to agree, if only because at least a doctor regularly treating transfolks & handling medical transition would already be familiar with hormones & doses & the bodies that go along with them. in terms of medical care, it would mean more information for you. the trick would be to get info without getting caught up in the red tape of regulated medical transition.

of course i have complete faith that you can find that balance... good luck, a.

ps. i would be interested in hearing about the path you took to self-medicating & how you worked it all out, if you wouldn't mind sharing. maybe next time we're both online.